Well, here I am week four & I have not been able to give this program the undivided attention that I should be. I am working five 12 hour days plus 1/2 a day Saturday. Hence, I wonder if I can recover if I cannot follow this program to the letter. I truly do not want to quit nor fail. I fear that I will not be able to get the full benefit from this much needed opportunity.
I am not afraid of hard work but I could really use a kick in a the A** every now and then, just because. I recently had a job opportunity at my current job come up and I interviewed but I am still not aware of the outcome. I am not feeling warm & fuzzy about the potential outcome. If I get it I will truly be shocked. I am putting off bad jujus. This type of thinking will not get me what I want.
Still haven’t reached clarity on my true bliss. I have such a hard time letting go of my bad habits knowing that business as usual is not good for me. If I am not willing to change, then I can not grow. I am so tortured and unhappy. I so need this change! I do see myself reacting to situations in my work place in a better way. I quote George Costanza from Seinfeld (in my head). Serenity Now!!! This helps me to enhance my calm and think before I speak.
I can’t wait until I get fully staffed at work again so that I can focus on the task at hand. I look forward to being able to have some time again where I do not feel over burdened and my body stops hurting. Need to stick to a work out program as well.
Looking to week 5 to be my turn around week. All you fine people out there give me some constructive feedback to get me back on track. I really appreciate your input. In fellowship, JY
I’m grinding. It has not gotten any easier. There are definitely not enough hours in a day to tackle everything that I have to contend with on a daily basis. I feel like I am on a sinking ship. I need a life preserver and fear there is none in sight. I am not liking that fact that I am spewing negativity. I am really looking to make a significant and wonderful change. My past ways of thinking and reacting definitely needed some adjustments.
I do take some comfort in the fact that I am not the only one feeling pressure and a sense of inadequacy. When you put it all out there and strip down to the bare bones it is intimidating. I can not wait until I obtain clarity in this endeavor.
I will take more time to view other participant’s blogs and comments to gain more insight into my struggle. I welcome constructive feedback to aid me in my journey. Sometimes it takes an outside point of view to point out things that may be right in front of my face but I am missing.
Can I really master the Masterkey system? I sure hope so. I need to try and carve out some time for myself. I am working six days a week and I have a hard time prioritizing my time. I need a personal assistant to keep me straight. I wonder if there is an app that could help me with time management? My dog is not happy with me either because I am not taking time to spend with him. He has been moping around and sighing loudly. After the webinar this Sunday, I will take him to the park so that he can get out of the house. It will do us both some good.
This was a frustrating week for me. The materials for week 2 weren’t ready until Saturday night. I like to be proactive and be prepared. Next I was unable to view the Webcast on my PC. Therefore, I could not get the full effect with my webinar handouts. I like to utilize various types of methods to enhance my learning ability.
I have a change of weather cold. I jumped on it quick but I feel like crap. When I feel under the weather I can not think straight. My head is in a vice grip. I am no where near my potential this week. I am just miserable.
I am also feeling like a Freshman in high school. I had to decide what I wanted to do with the rest of my life in 4 years. Now I am under the same gun with less time. I would really like to know how to tap into my hard head and know what it is that I really want. I am clueless. What’s a girl to do?
I will not let this discourage me. I will not give in to “subby”. I will continue daily reinforcement as instructed. I will continue living the dream. The reward is well worth the struggle. “I will drink as a instructed and spill not a drop. And the seed of success I will swallow!”
I was thinking, imagine that, I wonder if should enlist the aid of a hypnotherapist to help me unleash my dharma. I probably have a lot of cement to get through. In addition, I am most likely a major control freak and would not submit to being placed under hypnosis. So there in lies my dilemma. My agenda is to figure out a feasible plan to tap in to my raw feelings and discover my true bliss.
I am nervous and apprehensive starting this new journey of self-discovery. I have a million thoughts running through my mind. Can I accomplish my goals? Will I be able to tow the line and stay focused on the path to find my purpose in life? I have been diligent in following what is being asked of me.
The unknown is a little scary. I don’t want to fall back into old patterns. It is a hard task to undo bad or unproductive habits. I can’t wait until my new learned behavior becomes second nature. In addition, I can’t wait until the light bulb goes off. Sometimes it takes a while but when it finally comes it is a major Ah Huh moment.
To unlock my full potential will be a liberating feat. The feeling of real accomplishments is rewarding. I am intimidated by blogging. I am really not a social media person. I have only recently created a Facebook and Twitter account. I don’t like the fact that what you post never goes away and sometimes the wrong type of individuals may view your sites. So, putting myself out there is a really big step for me.
The weekly telecoms are very informative and motivating. Our speakers are upbeat and encouraging. The fact that we get quick responses to our questions is fantastic. The support system that is in place is awesome. Our peers express some of the same questions and concerns that I may be feeling. This makes you feel that you are not alone in this journey.
My hope is to be the best Janet that I can be and that I will be able to positively influence other people. When I succeed in completing the MKMMA course, I will challenge others to delve deep and explore their potential to be the best that they can be. Until then, I will continue keeping my focus on the tasks at hand. God bless everyone!