Still not all in. Just saying. Disappointed in myself. I need an exorcist! When applying the new blueprint I can honestly say that I see the reality of changing my blueprint. I am still embroiled in a major fight with “subby.” He is a worthy opponent.
I still want to state the obvious. Time isn’t on my side. Overburdened, overwhelmed and just plain burnt out. I fight daily to form good habits. Keep consistent. Quitting is not an option. The time is now.
I dislike blogging. I am really not a social media person. I’d rather rant and rave in the privacy of my own home instead of visiting my feelings on others. Do it now! Do it now! I really need to turn this around right now. Eventually, if I do not consistently follow the program, I may not be able to recover.
I am not in a good place. I am still grieving. But, in this day and time, you can not truly grieve the way you need to, due to, time constraints. You must move on because you still have to go to work to earn a paycheck. So, you put your feelings on the back burner and continue to pretend that you are alright and everything is OK because no one cares unless they are affected or they have experienced your grief.
I say Serenity Now! I utilize this saying to calm myself and gain some peace of mind so I can concentrate on my inner peace.
I liked the reading webinar. He was a great teacher. I liked the chant, it kept me interested and on track. I intend to apply this technique to accomplish this skill to enrich my reading. The question is! Can I overcome “subby” and become the me I need to be? Time will tell!