Well, here I am week four & I have not been able to give this program the undivided attention that I should be. I am working five 12 hour days plus 1/2 a day Saturday. Hence, I wonder if I can recover if I cannot follow this program to the letter. I truly do not want to quit nor fail. I fear that I will not be able to get the full benefit from this much needed opportunity.
I am not afraid of hard work but I could really use a kick in a the A** every now and then, just because. I recently had a job opportunity at my current job come up and I interviewed but I am still not aware of the outcome. I am not feeling warm & fuzzy about the potential outcome. If I get it I will truly be shocked. I am putting off bad jujus. This type of thinking will not get me what I want.
Still haven’t reached clarity on my true bliss. I have such a hard time letting go of my bad habits knowing that business as usual is not good for me. If I am not willing to change, then I can not grow. I am so tortured and unhappy. I so need this change! I do see myself reacting to situations in my work place in a better way. I quote George Costanza from Seinfeld (in my head). Serenity Now!!! This helps me to enhance my calm and think before I speak.
I can’t wait until I get fully staffed at work again so that I can focus on the task at hand. I look forward to being able to have some time again where I do not feel over burdened and my body stops hurting. Need to stick to a work out program as well.
Looking to week 5 to be my turn around week. All you fine people out there give me some constructive feedback to get me back on track. I really appreciate your input. In fellowship, JY